The more that’s all said, the truer it becomes, apparently.
Your post was probably very thoughtful compared to most here. For that, I commend you. However, I urge you to reconsider your position. Religion may have been a helpful crutch for humanity in millennia past and for you yourself in your life. However, religion no longer servers any purpose that rational methods don’t. Your Christianity is merely the result of your upbringing, presumably. Don’t ascribe some mystical exception to it.
Thats basicly what Friedrich Nietzsche means with the phrase "God is Dead" so I'm glad that u posted that.