victoria

The Real Me

crap i am here again
im still feelin the pain
do u have somethin to gain
from me goin insane?
now just look at me
dude look at me
look at the state im in
for all u care i could become a Jin
but hey now i dont care
i dont care in whatever i fare
but hey i need u
babe it is true
that i really need u
been feelin so blue
without seein or hearin u
c'mon talk to me
yell at me
hate at me
curse at me
but take my hand & pls talk to me
say u forgive me
say that i am free
do u even get a thrill out of this?
from hating me?
despising me?
dissing me?
detessing me?
like my folks always do?
u do?
hell then i dont even know u no more
but it really cuts to the core
that u & them all hate me somemore
so listen to me
pls hear my plea (ok?)

BRIGDE:
i have tried to hide myself from u
hide myself from u

CHORUS:
i have become
this girl who's like scum
maybe everyone wanna get away from me
but i will keep trying to be the girl
who im not, just because, everyone, hates...
the real me...

even tho' everyone's distant
im tryin to be patient
my salvation
is on a vacation
but at least i have a consolation
my tears they've been wit me
im crying till im bleeding
now call me emo
hate me till zero
but u dont understand the point
ur still my hero
yet u left the joint
left me all alone
left me here to moan
to rot & to die
excuse me, but can i?
can i die?
pathetic
am i?
Lord knows im gonna fry
when i get down to die
im going down to hell
but dont worry i wont take u there
im so used to being alone
papi lemme atone (again)
forgive my mistake
it was all i could take
u hate, u diss, u cuss
its not injus
so again i say im sorry
i wont mention no name
and if this sounds so corny
and might even sound lame
forgive me

(bridge)
(chrous)

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People I LOVE On NL:

HINATA: BFF
SHADOWWOLF: Guardian Angel
G: Da King
AZUMI: Partner
VANITY: Mummy
KLUANG: Member
VASH_THEHUNTER: E-student
EKANG: Lil' Brother
MOOCH: Real-Deal
GOTDS: Bro
AKATSUKISHINOBI: Sebster
OAKGYRL: Porkchopest lady
SHADOWCLONE: Hottie Homie